Currently Listening The Last 5 Years (2002 Off-Broadway Cast) By Jason Robert Brown, Norbert Leo Butz, Sherie Rene Scott Shiksa Goddess see related

The last week has been...crazy to say the least! I went camping up in Roman Nose with Chris, Kristin, Cate, and Ryan. That was a blast. Then friday was Widge's birthday gathering with Ginger, Ben, Weston, Patrick, and Trey (sp?) that was WAY too much fun...I made a few decisions that I probably shouldn't have but hey, doesn't everyone? I must say either way I had a TON of fun...

I'm greatful that i've gotten to hang out with Ginger and Widge a lot these past weeks, they're really cool girls. We've been having a lot of fun! Ginger has introduced us to her circle of friends, they're really cool. Genuine people, which are hard to find. Weston gives THE BEST backrubs ever. So 25 points goes to him.

I miss Eli. A lot. He says he misses me too, and that maybe when the school year starts, we can talk again and hang out since he'll be out of his mom's house and at the Phi Psi house. That would be good, but i'm trying to prep myself for it NOT happening. Which is sad, but I don't want to get my hopes up, which I tend to do all the time. This is why I HATE summer. I mean, sure it's great to sleep in all the time and work a lot to get money, and hang out whenever you want with whoever you want for however long, but honestly, it puts people in funks. And I hate that. I'm ready for school.

Let's get this show on the road...

Oh yeah!!!! I also got a free place to live, at Kristin's new house. Just for the summer because i'll be in house come August 1st, but hey, it'll still be fun. I'm picking out all these bright yellows and muted greens. I know, it sounds like throw up, but trust me it looks a lot cooler than it sounds. Painting will be fun. What won't be fun is moving into a house for a month then having to move out again and into another.

I think I just realized I hate moving. Summer is lazy time.

Currently Listening Demon Days By Gorillaz Feel Good Inc. see related

Summer....

I love my friends. They rock so hard it's ridiculous. I also love road trips....and mountains...and streams. So, what better way to combine them all than by going up to Colorado with De La Cruz, Kristin, and Ryan or Partick? I dunno, but free trips are great. Kristin's mom is going to give us $500 to go up there for a day, and well let's face it. Her and I have been up there on $100 and a prayer and done fine. Can we say, SHOPPING MONEY?

I'm excited!

Thank God 'cause if I have another dissapointment right now, I think i'm going to spontaneously combust. That would be really cool to see though, huh?

Hmmm... maybe not.

Out.

Currently Playing Some Devil By Dave Matthews Stay or Leave see related

Why do these things always happen to me....

I don't get it. I like to think i'm a good person, I try to give everything I have to people I care about, but it seems like I always get shafted.

It was one promise...a simple one he promised to keep, but didn't.

And it all escaladed and now everything's gone to shit.

We'ver worked so hard...and made so much progress. What happened? I can't live through another repeat of last summer.

I won't.

It hurt way to damn much.

I've been through so much shit in my life, I don't understand. Do I deserve all of it? I can't think of anything I possibly did (except love people and be happy, but I guess that was a crime) to deserve every shitty thing that's happened.

I can't do it anymore.

Damn my computer illiteracy.